Day 243 – Progress Report

Current Project: Memoir

Status: In Progress

Time Spent: 

  • Writing: 15 hrs.
  • Blogging: 3 hrs.
  • Networking:  3 hrs.
  • Reading: 11 hrs.
  • Words: 762

Blogging is a chore lately. The pressure of my long project makes me resent writing anything else. Plus, writing is boring. There isn’t much I can say about the creative progress other than I sat down for a really long time again and thought really, really hard. It’s a battle everyday, this writing thing. It makes me feel like shit most days. You’re lucky if you get one brilliant sentence in a week that makes you think wow I can do this after all. This blog kinda makes me feel exposed too. This week was really hard on my writing life and personal life. I’m going through something that makes my writing feel constipated. The doubt is overwhelming, but it is manageable after 30 minutes or so at the page. But man those first 30 minutes are absolute war. You think of every tempting excuse to get you away from the page. You can’t lie to yourself there and somedays I desperately need a comfy lie to get me through the day. My rejection letter from Tin House was very motivating though. It is a result, a proof that I am here, that I am working, a negative result, but a result just the same, so much better than silence. This week I felt really down, nearly depressed, but not quite so I’m going on a brief vacation for 2 days, a jaunt out to wine country. I didn’t get to travel as much as I’d liked this summer so this little excursion will have to do for now. I’ll be writing, but I’m not sure how much I’ll be blogging. Maybe I’ll post a few pictures to keep up the momentum, but really I need a break from the exposure. Life isn’t always best lived out loud. Sometimes I need a bit of quiet private. Anyway, that’s where I’m at. Motivate, doubtful, and confuse with a little sprinkle of fledgling hope. It’s not exactly comfortable, but it’s where I’m at.

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